Lately, I’ve been thinking.
To be honest, I am very, very lazy. Because of this, I have a hard time answering to my obligations both online and in real life. I am a person of many interests, but I almost never fully pursue anything that I take interest in, yes, including anime. I have dropped many anime this year simply because I was too lazy to watch them. I try to write fiction, but I’m still stuck even now. I try to draw and get somewhat positive results, but I never tried to draw again after two attempts.
I am taking my major in my country’s best university system, being one of the high scorers on the entrance exams, but my grades are always hovering around the passing mark (well, except for philosophy and the social sciences, but that’s another story). I could alweays get a higher grade, but I tend to skip classes if I’m not in the mood. Yes, I am THAT lazy. I deliberately avoid to turn over some school requirements, earning me a sort of delinquent status. My exam scores are high, but my grades will always be dragged down by the other requirements that I don’t accomplish.
Instead, I always think about the stuff that don’t really have anything to do with my major (chemical engineering), like the workings of the human mind, how people seem to need religion desperately, and the philosophy behind many abstract concepts like morality, politics and ethics.
In the course of my mulling over the Christmas season, I have come to the topic of why I don’t seem to dedicate myself to anything I do. And after much deliberation and self-deprecation, I decided that I would change myself in the coming year. As such, I will make my first ever new year’s resolution, albeit being too early.
I, @fkeroge, promise myself that I will accomplish any and all obligations presented to me by myself and other people, academic or otherwise. I will avoid distracting myself by means unnecessary to my goals. I will do everything that I decide to pursue with utmost dedication and wholeheartedness, be it in my everyday life, or obligations I have on the internet, with more focus on the real life aspect.
Should I fail to accomplish any obligation in real life, I shall take a leave from the internet until any and all problems are dealt with.
Of course, my obligations in real life are pretty simple (lies!). They shouldn’t be too hard if I put my mind to it.
As for my online obligations, I have quite a few. For starters, I have to post in this blog every so often. I realized that to become a good anime blogger, I should actually watch anime worth blogging about, regardless of whether the anime in question is airing or not. For these purposes, I have decided to watch more older anime rather than try to keep up with what’s airing. This is proving to be a good decision as I have realized that my view the different genres of entertainment, particularly anime and manga, is much too narrow.
I am also doing translation work for several projects. I won’t disclose what these projects are, but I will do my best to do my work as fast as possible, while of course, not sacrificing quality.
As for my application as a fiction writer, I am to finish writing my sample scenario and submit it as soon as possible. That much, I have to do.
I know it will be hard for me to keep track of everything that I get myself into, but I have to make sure that I make right this year, for my sake, for the people around me, and of course for the wonderful people that I met around the world through the internet. It’s cliche, but I ask everyone who reads this blog to lend me support, however small.