As most of you would have read by now, today AOIA turns 1 year old. Being the
emo reflective sort, I tend to do a little reflection on these little milestones. And thus began an introspective on blogging – an introspective on opening AOIA.
I’ve often repeated how AOIA started out to be nothing more than a personal blog. Hence the title pun. I’d honestly never expect AOIA to evolve into a full-time anime blog – even though I did dabble in anime posts once in a while back then in AOIA’s infancy, it was only after quite a few months did the blog become anime-oriented. Before that, it was just life posts, filler posts aplenty, loot posts, and pretentious anime posts. You can check them out yourself. Some of the posts even had Greek titles, for Christ’s sakes. I look back upon the old times and think : oh darn, I was way more stupid back then, huh?
I estimate the tipping point to be some time around the end of June. For reasons I can’t remember , around that period I was kind of melancholic. Posting about life didn’t have that same zing to it. It used to be entertaining , but now it seems like a chore. It had came to me like an epiphany: I’d given up (blogging stuff on) life. It was then did I give up on posting life posts altogether. I had to eventually move those kind of posts to Tumblr, away from all the stats-obsessed razzle-dazzle that is WordPress.
From then on all the way to August, I was still kind of melancholic. I was drifting in and out of the blogging mood. Some life posts did come up once in a while, but most posts tended to be like FB updates : short, concise, and rushed out in a couple of minutes. I remember times when I complained about writer’s block when it was simply because I hadn’t been watching any anime at all. I felt close to giving up, until a few comments put me back in my place, and slowly, this was where I felt AOIA was gaining pace.
For one, I decided to dump the episodic posts gradually. Why? For ambiguous reasons, of course. And also because all the episodic posts were pretty much the same. Why not directly skip to the ‘my thoughts’ part and elaborate on it rather than be part of the sheeple? With blogs like 2D-Teleidoscope and other assorted editorial blogs going onto my feed reader, I guess you could say I learnt slowly. Really slowly. So much so that it took me until October to get the hang of it. And I still managed to get respectable results for school too – suck it, critics – who says I can’t blog and do this at the same time?
Eventually, AOIA got more and more focused, and by that, I mean more ambiguous -which was good in a sense. After all, we started bringing in philosophy, research, books, and analyses into the posts. Things got less and less like Bad Book Club, and more and more like Freakonomics. Then again, people still ask me : why do you blog? That is indeed a good question. Why do I blog? Why do I blog about anime, on a regular basis, even if I don’t watch anime as much? Why put so much effort into blogging, so much time to the extent where it identifies my personality ? Why? Is it for the satisfaction? The numerical stats? Or is it the warm feeling of being able to engage in discussion and feel part of this special clique?
Which then brings me to recent affairs: AOIA really did become a team blog. I already hesitated before I added Carillus to the cast at first – he managed to do so because I felt compelled due to age , and we kinda knew each other somewhat – and the results weren’t too bad, but the awkward feeling is still there. Blogging at a blog – which is no longer your own. But that’s just the pessimistic view. Even as we speak, the stats are shooting through the roof – today might even set an all time high. Blogging as a team : to an optimist, who enjoys the idea of discussion and numerical stats, he/she would definitely see the good side of this : even more discussion, even better stats, and of course, even more ambiguity.
Cheers to yet another ambiguous year.